When was the last time you cried?

Was it when I said goodbye,

Did that make you cry?

Was it when you couldn’t sleep

Because you knew we’d gone too deep

To trust tender tendencies

And refuse nothing but love and hate,

Anger and anxiety

And show the frustration through vulnerability

Leaving yourself totally vulnerable

To my coldness 

Stiffness,

Undressing your confidence

Each item of your selflessness

Becoming my minions,

Replacing them with powerless, unreasonable anguish

Is that when you cried?

Or was it when I said

I wish you’d bide by my instructions,

Do as I say,

Go through each day with me on your mind,

On your back,

On your neck

Checking every inch of you

From your hair do to your black tattoo

That reminds you of you, before me.

Is that why you cried?

Because you thought about life without me

You dreamt of being free

You thought it meant you shouldn’t be with me,

Couldn’t trust me.

Wouldn’t rush me into a marriage

A wedding was never on the cards

Until you believed you’d had your fill

Of the cup of me.

And now you see it’s you, not me

Not able to show his vulnerability

And in frustration

Of this weak conclusion

Love,

Your love falters, at the knees,

You bend, bow your head

And instead of a stab at the stars

Defy your fortune

Look up at the moon and ask for hope

Was that when you cried?